Everydaystranger

The other night I was looking for some photos from my childhood that I had scanned, and thus I looked into a folder on the drive called “Scanned Photos” (seriously, my powers of deduction amaze me sometimes). Instead of my photos, I found some of Angus’ scanned photos. I had expected to see [...]

Last night Angus and I sat down to watch a Horizon episode about gravity. We like Horizon. Horizon is like the poor man’s university. We like poor universities.
Anyway, about 20 minutes into the program, when the chappie who needs a haircut started to explain Einstein’s space-time continuum concept, a little puff of [...]

If you asked me if I thought my weekend was going to go the way it did, I think I would’ve shrugged and murmured something along the lines of “No, not really, I – ooh look-something shiny!”
In time honored tradition, I give you the following “Which one of these things doesn’t belong here?”. The [...]

There are a lot of ways that I can describe how being a mother is to me, and many more times over I can tell you that I lack the vocabulary to make a single constructive sentence about what it’s been like. Ups and downs don’t even begin to describe it. Every moment [...]

This morning, as I went about morning business, this was how my mind worked. I figured I’d give you an example to show you just how much I overthink everything. Because I do. Overthink everything, that is.
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I finished feeding and burping the babies and parked them under the Baby Einstein Gym. [...]

I have a lot of things buzzing around that I want to write about – extensions, work, writing, etc., – but moods in our house have taken a downturn (again), I’m working on little sleep for two nights running, and both Nick and I are battling digestive issues. So I’m taking the cheap way [...]

Wow. Many huge, enormous thanks to those who came forward and let me know who you are in my last post. I am heartened/shocked/amazed/humbled by the comments, and am especially glad to see how many mothers/about-to-be mothers/women going through absolute fiery hell fertility treatment to become mothers there are reading here. I [...]

Time marches on. The babies are now 3.5 months old, and even though we’re only just fitting into size 0-3, they are growing and I know that any attempt to fight it will be like tilting windmills on a whole new scale. And I never much liked windmills anyway, so why charge at [...]

Something extraordinary has happened.
Honestly.
I can hardly believe it.
A week ago something huge shifted into our world. It was literally overnight. I can pinpoint when it happened. I’ve been holding my breath since, but it has maintained for a week now. It’s real. It’s transforming my days and making them what [...]

Last night, late conversations.
Hands on a back.
Things that needed to be said, and perhaps more importantly, things that needed to be heard.
The darkness I circle through is not necessarily because of how I feel about the twins, although there is a large part of that – as a number of wonderful women commented yesterday, motherhood [...]

I sometimes get emails from people telling me that they are on the verge of killing themselves, they somehow found my blog, and what can I tell them to keep them from ending it all?
In short: nothing. I can’t tell you anything that will make it all better, that will make it easier, that [...]

This morning, burdened by confused body clocks and too many time zones, we woke at 4 am and decided to just go about our day. The babies, still asleep (and sleeping record amounts since returning home) were snuggled in their Grobags in their cot, and their soft snuffles and snores reassured me.
The Grobags happened [...]

So we’re home now.
We’re home, the place looks like it’s been bombed with the innards of a Samsonite factory, the cat rebelled and punctured the place with attractive hairballs (now rectified, because while I can tolerate baby spit-up cat stomach acid is not ok), I’ve got eleven billion things to do, Nick and Nora both [...]

A short one from me, because our internet connection is tenuous at best – I suppose some forethought should have gone into it, because although our condo stated they have wifi, what they failed to mention was that the wifi was cable relay and located on the top of our neighbor’s condo, all of which [...]

In a move that both surprises me and seems the most natural thing on earth, the babies were born exactly three months ago today.
I can’t believe three months has passed. It seems like more. It seems like less. It feels like I have never been without the babies, and it feels like [...]

Christmas came in a flurry of presents and laughter, and New Years wasn’t too far behind. It’s great being here with my family, Melissa and Jeff have effortlessly slid into the fabric here and the babies are the very center of the universe, but overall Angus and I are really suffering.
The plane ride went [...]