Everydaystranger

Years ago there was a foreign film they showed when I lived in Sweden. I don’t remember much about it, except for the concept that when we die, we get to relive one day again and again. Each person chose their day based on their lives – one person, I remember, chose a [...]

I’m not handling today at all well.
I wish I was – I actually had a wonderful Christmas, surrounded by lots of people and lots of food and lots of laughter – but I’m just not.
Spending time with Angus’ family is getting more and more enjoyable. I genuinely like and care about them all now (some [...]

Merry Christmas to you and the ones you love.

Love,
Helen and the Lemonheads

Five years or so ago I was in San Francisco for business. I had several days off, and one of those days I toured Chinatown. I remember a short elderly Chinese man standing on a milk crate on a corner, right in front of those stereotypical Chinese restaurants with the long body of [...]

Yesterday Nora and I trooped into London for a Mommy-Daughter day. We had one Christmas present left to buy – something for my step-grandma Nobu, the tiny little Japanses one who you could fit into your pocket (although we don’t do that, as that would be mean). Nobu has a deep, inabiding fondness [...]

It’s late and you sleep a floor above me.
Still, silent, warm.
If I close my eyes I can see how you breathe.
I am conscious of you every moment of the day
No matter the distance
My thoughts hover, and warm.
Before there was you
There were tears
And pain
And hope.
I would close my eyes and ask an angel to sit with [...]

I got pregnant at the same time as about 5 other IVF bloggers, and all but one of us had twins (they warn or multiple births with fertility treatment, and they’re not dicking around when they do that). The group is fairly evenly split – half of us had b/g twins, the other half [...]

We should’ve seen it coming.
It’s going to be a strange next few days. What’s so strange? Is it because it’s bitingly cold outside? Only a week to Christmas? The fact that I have 8 tiny reindeer in my back garden?
None of those, really (although the reindeer one, that’d be strange). [...]

The wanker does, indeed, appear to have removed my photo from his photostream, but apparently he took the photo up and down once already, so I’ll be checking his photostream to make sure my photo does not re-appear.
As for me, I also got my wrists slapped for “inciting mob behavior”. One would think I’d [...]

The air is cold, so cold it takes my breath and marbles the air with the slightest hint of an exhale. I am dressed for the cold, but still shocked by it. I drive to the train station feeling my usual pressure with none of the reason for it. I park – [...]

An asshole has stolen one of the pictures of my babies.
I am many levels beyond furious.
So that’s it.
My pictures of the babies on Flickr will be for friends and family only from here on. If you want to view them and I know you, then let me know and I will add you as [...]

It’s Thursday, which means the babies and I leave in an hour to head to the movies. It’s become our thing, really, although after the stupidity that was Fred Claus I’ve learned to be a little more discerning in which films I choose. The good news is this week it’s a film I [...]

The other day I had several errands to run. I had three boxes needing to go out in the post, Christmas cards to be written and mailed (I know, I’m running late. What can I say? Twins.) and the babies were running low on formula, so a trip to the shop was [...]

The sound of Nora, screaming again, lulls me out of my sleep. It was a good sleep, too. I dreamt I was sampling the shrimp buffet at a swanky hotel in Madagascar while Mr. Pink played “Don’t Cry For Me, Argentina” on the piano. You know, as it sometimes happens.
I shrug into [...]

Back when I had my other blog up and running – which I started to be private! Private from my family! Oh how that backfired, because some people can’t stay out of other people’s business! (I’m not going to stop mentioning that. Ever. Especially since said individuals still lurk on this [...]

I think it’s time I faced the music.
I have a confession to make.
As well as eating of the humble pie.
I followed a link someone had to me the other day only to discover the category they had me in. It was a first for me. It was a sign of the times. [...]

Just a short one from me – the babies and I are off shortly to see a film (Fred Claus. I’m thinking it’ll suck some serious red and green Christmas ass, but who cares? A film with the babies is a marvelous thing indeed.) After that we’re off to the doctor’s, where [...]

Last night I walked Gorby through the dusky evening, the baby sling across my chest holding the weight of a sleeping twin. Mist was heading in but it was light enough to enjoy the woods. I felt pretty brave walking him in the evening, because even in full daylight I can walk through [...]

As time has passed I’ve found that my opinions get more and more scant. It’s as though a cork has been popped into me and plugs up anything that might be coming out. Over the length of seconds, minutes, days, weeks and months, this has turned me into someone that I don’t like. [...]

Love, you know?
Love. It comes in so many, many forms. The most talked about, the most revered, the most painful thing in the world, love. The center of the Hallmark industry, the enabler of Hollywood stardust, the stuff that romantic dreams are made of. Love. The greatest and most painful, [...]